I Fear…

[ ] the dark
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 3

[ ] being touched
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow

Total so far: 5

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[x] clowns
[x] dolls
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes

Total so far: 7

[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[x] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[x] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up

Total so far: 11

[x] creepy noises in the night
[x] bee stings
[ ] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secrets

Final Total: 13

Well would you look at that i'm normal. Would of thought i would have come out as paranoid. >___>

If all our life is but a dream
Fantastic posing greed
Then we should feed our jewelry to the sea
For diamonds do appear to be
Just like broken glass to me

And then she said she cant believe
Genius only comes along in storms of fabled foreign tongues
Tripping eyes and flooded lungs
Northern downpour sends its love

Hey moon, please forget to fall down
Hey moon, don’t you go down

Sugarcane in the easy morning
Weathervanes my one and lonely

The ink is running toward the page
It’s chasing off the days
Look back at both feet and that winding knee
I missed your skin when you were east
You clicked your heels and wished for me

Through playful lips made of yarn
That fragile Capricorn
Unravelled words like moths upon old scarves
I know the world’s a broken bone
But melt your headaches call it home

Hey moon, please forget to fall down
Hey moon, don’t you go down

Sugarcane in the easy morning
Weathervanes my one and lonely

Sugarcane in the easy morning
Weathervanes my one and lonely

Sugarcane in the easy morning
Weathervanes my one and lonely

Sugarcane in the easy morning (Hey moon, please forget to fall down)
Weathervanes my one and lonely (Hey moon, don’t you go down)

Sugarcane in the easy morning (You are at the top of my lungs)
Weathervanes my one and lonely (Drawn to the ones who never yawn)

Sugarcane in the easy morning (Hey moon, please forget to fall down)
Weathervanes my one and lonely (Hey moon, don’t you go down)

Hey moon, please forget to fall down
Hey moon, don't you go down
You are at the top of my lungs
Drawn to the ones who never yawn

I love this song. I totally fell in love with it when i heard it.

Well school starts tuesday and I'm actually kind of excited except for the whole having to wake up at you know 5:30. Cursed band! Just kidding i love band it's soo much fun. I'm soo screwed for next year though. Band + Orchestra + AP classes = no life for Scotty.

Well I just had my recital last night and i'm really happy with how it went. There was a couple of mistakes but they weren't too big. You would think since this recital is over I would get a break from practicing. Nope! Now i have to practice the All-State auditions and learn the Mozart bassoon concerto for a nation wide concerto competition. The cool part is if you win the competition you get to perform with the National Air force band in DC, or whatever it's called haha. I'm super psyched for it. I'm totally going to push myself in hopes of at least making it to finals.

Ta ta for now! ^___^

Up, Up, Up By Kerli
Congratulations
False expectations
Wrong destination
And realization

That is
Manifestation
Fake sensation
Just imitation
Endless frustration

It's all the people going up up up up
It's all the people staying down down down
It's all the people going up up up up
It's all the people staying down down down

Imagination
Identification
And weak foundation
Is a bad combination

It's all the people going
Up up up up
It's all the people staying down down down
It's all the people going up up up up
It's all the people staying down down down

Listen

It's all the people going up up up up
It's all the people staying down down down
It's all the people going up up up up
It's all the people staying down down down

I've currently fallen in love with this new artist, Kerli. She's super awesome. Check her out fools.

Well i'm finally back from my week long drum major camp in Arizona it was actually a lot of fun, just really hot. It was soo nice to be able to hang out with my schools three other drum majors we've become soo close because of it. ^_^ I also made tons of friends from other schools in New Mexico and other states! I actually miss it alot and I kinda want to go back. I miss my Arizona buddies

It wasn't all fun and games either there was soo much work involved. Holy shit i've never seen a crazier work ethic in my life. We got two hours for lunch and dinner, but those two hours were spent studying for tests that would be given to us at the session after lunch or dinner. We pretty much worked from 8 in the morning to about 10 at night. It was definitely alot of work, but i totally think it was worth it.

Sadly I didn't take my camera, but i now know that i need to for next years camp. Heh I had soo much fun while i was there. It was really sad to leave. I actually kinda wish the camp was a week longer. I would love to be able to hang out with the people i met at camp for another week even if it's while we're in the crazy heat marching around.